May 24, 2014

     The complicated relationship I have with my family fuels the fire I have in my soul that ignites at a moment's notice. I know that doesn't make sense, but whatever. I really do love the relationship that my family has,at least my grandmother on my mom's side. We are all unrealistically close and some people even find it a little weird. I spend so much time with my cousins from first to fifth. I am constantly surrounded by family which could be a good o bad thing depending on the day. This past weekend I spent Friday night with my cousin Jack watching movies while our mothers drank wine in the kitchen, Saturday helping my uncle move into is new apartment while my grandparent who wee supposed to be helping just complained about everything, and Sunday just spending the day with my aunts and letting them buy things for me. Overall I really love how ridiculously close we are and I wan to stay that way so that my children's children will have the same experiences I have.

May 17, 2014

      Today is May seventeenth 2014. It is an okay day with no much to do. I know that I only have like a month left before finals, but I'm not really nervous or scared about it at all. I like to think of myself as a chill and laid back, but today my brother told me I am always super hyper or super stressed. I think its just a way of life for me. I have ad will always be mood swingy. I don't know why but I am I have grown to love how one day I can be overly excited about everything and the next I hate the world and everything in it, including my mother at times. My mother and I have a very complicated relationship. I love her and she loves me, but sometimes we don't like each other just because we have different personalities. Although I think we are very different everyone else says hat we are exactly the same which makes sense since we both but head so much.